I like a guy named Steve. Yes, he shares the same name with Skeeb. Odd, ain't it? The sad part is, he is still hungover on his ex. Who lives in San Francisco. Who is with another guy. Who believes it is possible to be in love with more than one person (one's own children excluded). That's the speculation between me, Virginia, and Christina. I'm rather pissed at him about it.
But I don't know what to do about it. I'm too shy to actually tell him straight forward and I'm too scared to call him out on a mere speculation.
Also, he retracted from me when I tried to give him a PAT ON THE SHOULDER. Sure, I tried to pet and poke him, but he never tries to avoid a shoulder pat. Plus he's not giving me the attention he usually does. I miss the attention. I crave it and need it and he's the only guy who has given me attention! With the exception of my dad. But the attention Steve gave me and the attention my dad gives me are infinitely different!
I'm just so frustrated... If he has an lj, I wish he were watching mine so he can read this entry... Maybe that'll tell him something, huh? Well, yes, maybe Christina can tell him what I wrote? Hmmm, who knows. I want Steve to know, but then again, there is possible rejection and that might drive me crazy as I have been disappointed so many fucking times and it just hurts me now.
Oh fuck, I'm turning all emo. Where's me Evanscence CD? Hahaha!
WAI?!?!?!
